I did some self-reflection on the way back home from school today. And I thought about certain things that happened to me recently; certain events that were nostagic, memorable, difficult to comprehend, or just make you go "Why did it turn out this way...?"

I remember when Haz once said she wanted to change for the better, to be a "nicer" person. What she meant was that she was going to consider others' feelings more, and stop swearing so often. (The latter hasn't really happened, but strangely, I hope it never does! A Haz who doesn't curse at least once a day seems alien to me! ;D In a good way, I mean.) Then I thought about some of my actions these past few days, and I really, really, didn't like it at all! O:

If you feel sad about something, go and make it into something happy! It's already over, done with, in the past, so why brood over it? You'll never get anything fruitful or meaningful that way, so take things on a more positive note! Avoiding things, being so fearful or hesitant, will be your downfall! Face what bothers you head on; even better if it's with a sweet, pleasant smile!

That's what I came up with while listening to Por Una Cabeza on my Mp3 while taking the train. Tango music can be really inspiring I guess :3

But my point is, I'm going to stop being such a coward to my one weakness which makes me stop in my tracks (not talking about Math. Hah!) and start something new and beautiful out of it. At least, I can try. It's downheartening that I didn't realise this earlier, but it's certainly better than never, because if I never convince myself of this, regret would always follow me around like a mild chronic irritant on the fringe of my existance. (Recognise this quote, fellow classmates? XD)

And so, I want to say: Sorry for being such a weak-willed little girl. I want to fight for what I want.

And...my feelings haven't changed a bit!

♥ 5:45 pm